Slowly I'm learning that sexual freedom does not eliminate the need for emotional intimacy. A year into my exploration of the BDSM scene, I've gained an appreciation for my body while engaging in some very fun scenes. I've developed a massive crush on an unavailable man. I've honed my ability to walk up to strangers and start up a conversation (I love your outfit!) But I'm no closer to developing close friendships or romantic relationships than when I started. If I'm truly honest with myself, relationships with others are what I'm after.  They're what everyone is after. They give meaning to life.

Yeah, a little frustrated and lonely tonight.