At the local BDSM club, I talked with a couple who are on the board of local BDSM educational group, asking if they received my membership renewal since I hadn't yet received my membership card. I chatted a bit with the wife, and we discussed how I had been having a hard time finding people to play with at the club. Most scenes are negotiated online. They may change the script at the D101 nights to reflect this. She asked her husband if he'd like to do a flogging scene with me, and he said he was too tired. Oh well.
The following week, the organization sent me a letter regarding my membership, and this was inside the envelope:
It will be interesting playing with someone much older with much more experience. By interesting I mean I will be nervous and a little uncomfortable. The uncomfortable is instinctual - everything you learn about being a woman and keeping yourself safe. It will be in public, I know he will respect my limits, and I'll hopefully have a friend there keeping an eye out. There will be no restraints, so I'll just walk away if I need to. But still I'm nervous. Frontal lobe: please control the lizard brain. Thanks.
Also, he is a nice looking guy, but I'm not attracted to him. The thought of him touching me in any kind of a sexual way is gross.
The negotiations to date: